~A Should To Cry On~

Berikut adalah perangai die yang aku nak complaint:
1) Slalu die xbenarkan aku drive sendiri....
but now lantak ko la na...pandai2la
2) Without failed die akan call/bbm aku bile nk tdo...
but now...teeettt....lantak ko la na nak tdo kul bape..AAK
3) Slalu die romantik ckp i luv u n miss u...
but now...haram....;(
4) Slalu die xleh xtgk aku 3 ari max..
but now..da 1 week x tentang mate die rilek jee
5) N yg paling aku sedey..
now die skalu marah2....
Aku harap sgt ade magic yg berlaku....i really miss the old version og him..i m really do...;(
"Ya Allah....kembalikan dia padaku"....

things getting worse

smlm aku gaduh besar...sgt besar...n aku kire inilah pergaduhan aku yg terbesar skali ngan die....he's tollay a different person now...aku pun xtau nape aku jadi cam org gile smlm...sampai menggigil...kebas seluruh badan...tp...arini aku rase lebih tenang..sbb aku dah leh ngadu ngan Ilahi....aku da wat solat hajat...kalo aku tercipta utk die...InsyaAllah...as for now aku malas nk pikir....aku xkan contact die...aku akan kuat...be a stong gurl....
N now...aku de diopis....menghabiskan sisa2 idop aku yg xmenentu...ups n downs...tp lebih byk down kot....hahaha...bile pikir2 kesian betol kat diri aku...maybe aku dah wat wrong decision.. its ok...i've learnt somethin' at least...

Kakak,
From now onwards, u 've to be a strong gurl...berdiri di kaki sendiri..InsyaAllah....
jgn lupe TUHAN...ape2 pun dariNya...ujian utk aku..at least i know that HE still love me for giving me a great test...Subhanallah..Alhamdulillah...;p

a nice quote from her

"akak nmpk kurus sket...dr smlm nk tegur"....makaseh ye puan yg bercakap...at least there is sumthin' to smile at....;p

SOALAN2 SEDIH HARI INI

Berikut adalah soalan2 yg meruntun jiwa pada hari ini:

1) @ 10:00AM

U, bile lagi? dari puan pengantin baru Pn Dian yg baru 1st day keje setelh cuti kawen

2) @ 11:37AM

My team were talking about "kawen"...."pas shuba u la"...from mimi(smbil pandang aku dgn senyuman yg manis gule)

3) @ 01:23PM

Singgah kedai uncle belek2 magazine ..."beli la majalah pengantin ni ha...wat panduan"...from Datin

4) @ 12:22PM

While we were eating...they discussed bout their children this n that...me? NO input....teeetttttttttt..FULLSTOP.

i hate fb

salam...sgt2 lame aku xupdate blog yg kukira usang ditelan mase...

n now onwards...aku akan start blk activity paranormal ni....kire paranormal la sbb aku update blog..mcm2 berlaku lately yg x terluah ngan perasaan...tu yg otak aku start ligat pikir blk pe yg penah n njoy aku wat dulu...n 1 of d items is....blogging....InsyaAllah aku akan update blog sekerap yg mungkin...may be sbb aku da kekurangan sahabat yg aku leh share in outside...

but aku xblame sape2...sbb aku pun bukan senang nk luah pe yg aku rase....may be sbb bile kite luah...feedback yg kite dpt mengecewakan...then aku decide lbh baik aku blogging...lebih seirama nada aku n keyboard ni....

focus on akunye blog title arini ni....FB aka muka buku...makin lame aku tgk muke buke aku jadi makin kecik ati...kecik ati ngan dunia...kecik ati ngan kehidupan...sbb almost all myfren is sharing bout their family...aka absen n children...salahkan kalo aku rase cemburu...coz i don't have 1....i've nobody to share with...somehow naluri ibu aku perlu dilampiaskan....i need a son/daughter...to have them....i should find a asben...basically I've already have 1...but there will be another entry to be share ...

sedar xsedar umur aku da masuk 31 this year end...wat do i have...NOTHING....nothing at all..

pathetic!!...but aku syukur ngan Ilahi ngan pe yg aku de skang...just aku perlukan perubahan...

YES...i need a change....nextime kite cover k...jam pun da masuk kul 11...aku nk layan novellve yg da lena diselimuti habuk..

see u next entry yooo!